57 days...

Longest I've gone since I can't even remember!

OMG I am truly blessed to have the support of my friends and family in this battle I have in my head about my body. Last time I went for this long without "acting out" was like.... i dunno... late 2006/early 2007??? WOW! I am so proud of myself!

I can't thank everyone enough for all of the prayers and good thoughts you all have had for me

I LOVE YOU MORE THAN YOU CAN EVER KNOW!!!!

31 days...

I know I really shouldn't be counting... I'm really not keeping track I'm just basing it off my last update but its amazing how well I'm doing since being discharged from treatment.

Even though I had gone significant periods of time without engaging in as much bad behavior as I did prior to treatment, this is 31 days of absolutely NO ED behavior whatsoever!

I have to thank God for providing me with the strength to get through this and also all of the support I have in my friends and family.

ok ok and I'd like to thank MYSELF!!! My therapist back at BHC would be proud I'm even owning the fact that I'm doing better because I'M doing the work! Usually I wouldn't take credit at all so that's another victory in and of itself.

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On a slightly more negative note... I still struggle with the insensitivity I receive from those closest to me that know and are aware of my ED struggle. My mom especially should know better than anyone about what to say or not say around me. She even relayed a message to me from my aunt about helping at my cousin's baby shower... Of course I wanted to help but when I found out they wanted me to help serve food... I couldn't help but think they couldn't be that ignorant... could they!?

I mean that's like asking an alcoholic to pour champagne at New Year's... I mean you just... NO ok!? Not the brightest idea...

I have to learn that although ED is still very much on the forefront of my mind, the rest of the people around me may not always be thinking about it. I have to be more understanding but it's so difficult.